Winds of Change... Part Deux

As I mentioned some time back things are going to change. While this isn't the change I was talking about in my previous post, it is a change that will help me get to that point eventually. While I'm very excited at the prospect of learning new things, and bettering myself professionally I am very nervous. I know I'm going to get thrown to the wolves so to speak. Its not because I won't know what I'm doing but because I'm going to an area where there is far more work than can be handled currently. I've wanted to do this particular change for quite some time. It will get me to an area that I feel much more comfortable in. Where I feel like I can actually contribute more than I take.

Damn work

Good hell..... Why does the first day back to work from vacation always suck so bad?

Winds of change

The winds of change may be blowing in my direction. I don't want to get my hopes up, but I think it would be a very good thing if it did happen. I think perhaps it would get me out of my current delirium I'm in. While it would still be the same thing in many aspects it would be different enough to satisfy my needs for something new. Knowing my luck though it will get denied somewhere in the chain, but at least its giving me something to look forward to. The anticipation of not knowing is going to kill me while I wait to find out, but that is part of the mystery and excitement.

Perhaps a new ride?

I'm at work way to early for my own tastes. But there is a reason. If all goes well I will leave early today and buy myself a new car. Well.... not a new car but one that isn't 10 years old. It all depends on if I get a loan and the car is not a complete pile of shit when I go and test drive it later today. Odds are knowing my luck though that the bank will deny my loan application. Which all in all wouldn't be a terrible thing. Really it would save me a ton of money and I'd just continue to put more and more miles on the Altima of death. Which is ok really, it still runs really good, but is leaking a bit of oil now. I know its only a matter of time though before she blows up completely so I would like to find a replacement long before that happens so I can at least get a few bucks for the car rather than just junking it. Hopefully I'll know more by this afternoon. Time to try and wake my ass up and get back to work.

Stupid jobs

I've decided that I really dislike my job. The drama and the stress are getting to me. I feel like I'm drowning in it. I feel like I should put a bullet in my brain and just end the misery. If I had any ambition whatsoever I'd get off my ass and start looking for something new but I don't. Instead, I'll just sit here and look like I'm working when I'm not and counting the seconds until I leave.

Holy Shit

For some reason the powers that be at my job have decided to trust me to start travelling around the world. My current trip is taking me to Toronto Canada. I was asked on Thursday if I was able to go and I agreed thinking that they'd give me a week to get things ready and what not. Boy was I wrong. I was told today that I'm leaving on Sunday afternoon. Nothing like 49 hours of advance notice that you're going to be leaving the country for 4 weeks. I guess I shouldn't complain too much considering I don't have to pay for shit. But even still c'mon now, a little notice is nice so I can get some shit squared away first. Anyway, time to start getting ready and figure out if I can get myself fired on this trip. Here's hoping!