Small and insignificant hurtling through space waiting to collide into something to that brings order to the chaos. Rejection has a way of putting life into perspective. Even though the feeling shouldn't exist it does, it doesn't change the way I feel. At least I had a brief moment of happiness. A brief moment where for once the world felt good and right. I'll always have that at least but it isn't helping now. Now I just feel small and insignificant.
In the end this will all fade, and all I'll be left with is the good. I wish things were different though, the timing better, the world was a place that actually makes some sense once in a while. I know that will never happen. I know that things will never make sense in this world. Its a fact of the Universe that must be accepted to even be able to survive. Life is never easy, but I guess that's what makes us who we are. Makes us into the people we grow up to be before we fall into the endless darkness. Darkness seems to be a very comforting place, a place were all confusion leaves and all that is left is nothingness and bliss. Maybe its in that time just before, that this fucked up world actually makes sense. That would explain why no one knows what is ever truly going on. Why we all just seem to run around aimlessly and not make any sense of anything at all.
Someday, life will actually work out the way I think it should. Someday.
1 comment:
Is this about breakfast or has something happened since? Share with the Stephy. I'm here. You're situation can't be worse than mine. At least you actually had something for a minute.
I just have brief moments of gropage. Lovely moments of gropage, but brief. At least you had something more.
Timing is hell! I hate timing. A few months earlier and things in my life could be very different. In several different areas, not just the one that seems to matter the most to me.
At least you don't have over two years invested in your hell.
I'm just saying.
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